The unconscious mind doesn’t hear negatives. So each time a woman says: “I don’t want to keep going over the same ground”, what her unconscious mind hears is: “I want to keep going over the same ground”. The unconscious mind is not a dumping ground where you offload garbage. Instead, it is a somewhat literal genie totally committed to giving you exactly what it hears you ask for.
It’s ok to feel what you’re feeling. It’s normal. The fact that you are berating yourself for still being in the relationship actually means that you are growing your wings and preparing for flight.
The pace of recovery is way too slow at the start. Besides, you feel too weary to work through the process; you just want to hurtle through the recovery tunnel, like some kind of emotional time traveller, and arrive instantly at the other end. Healed. Whole. Of course it doesn’t happen.
Emotional abuse leaves you feeling like a bottomless pit. You attempt to fill that pit with whatever wisdom, support and information you can garner. And the pit still seems bottomless. Everything seems to disappear into it. Until one day you reach critical mass
There is a cosy belief that lingers that once a woman is no longer subjected to domestic violence the problem is over. Finished. History. Abused women suffer from our very own brand of PTSD (Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder) without knowing what it is or if they will ever recover from it. How could they, when they don’t even recognize that that is what has happened to them?
A lot of women who have found themselves in abusive relationships believe the are not part of the major group. It may be because we are bright, or middle class, or feisty, or financially independent or, you choose…
Healing your heart and getting over an abusive man is really very much easier than it seems.
In an abusive relationship your heart is systematically trashed and vilified. You walk, or limp away feeling that your heart is worthless because that is the way it has been treated.
And so you put your trust in your head. Because your head must be clear and rational, must it not? That is what heads are meant to be, after all.
Yet your head will not lead you out of the impasse. Such wisdom as you hold in your head stops at the jaw bone or the neck.
When you are consumed with hurt and rage hatred may feel like a more constructive outlet than love. The downside is, of course, that you remain just as focused, even fixated, on the person as you were before. So how, you might ask, do you arrive at indifference?
We become fixated on our partner’s potential – and of course he has potential, whatever we mean by that word. If he hadn’t had potential why on earth would we have bothered in the first place. Few of us have a robust enough sense of self, or are that crazy that we choose to have a relationship with someone we feel has less to recommend him than the average cockroach.
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