Last Saturday I nearly hit a black Ferrari. I was coming out of a turning near my old home. Long experience had taught me there is never traffic there, so I completely failed to look. The Ferrari did not react well because the driver assumed – wrongly – that nobody would be so half-witted as to pull straight out into its path. I missed hitting it entirely by luck; there was absolutely no judgement there. The best I can say for myself is that at least my choice of target shows a certain class…
The point of this story is my reaction. I thanked my angels for watching over me (and made a note to self to be far more careful in the future). Once upon a time I would have been far more inclined to go into catastrophizing mode.
Do I have angels watching over me?
Obviously, I cannot know for sure. But it is a helpful belief. Maybe, at the unconscious level, that belief made the difference between just hitting and just missing that Ferrari. Maybe my belief that I was safe, helped me to react, in that split second, in a way that kept me safe. I will never know.
Two things I do know:
1) the belief that I have angels watching over me enabled me to complete my long drive home safely, without repeatedly reliving the incident and programming into my brain how close I came to disaster
2) it is a far, far cry from the way I would once have reacted.
Like a lot of abused women, I once lived a hostile world, in which bad things happened, almost exclusively.
There were no angels. Or more correctly, there were no angels watching over me. Although I could see… CLICK HERE to continue reading.
Annie Kaszina, international Emotional Abuse Recovery specialist and award-winning author of 3 books designed to help women recognise and heal from toxic relationships so that they can build healthy, lasting relationships with the perfect partner for them, blogs about all aspects of abuse, understanding Narcissists and how to avoid them and building strong self-worth. To receive Annie’s blog direct to your Inbox just leave your details here.
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